Croaking Crocus.

A bit early, but here it is …

The first signs of spring. Discovered on my walk with B and Maman yesterday.

Okay, so really, I totally missed it. It was Maman’s voice I heard, with a hint of wonder to it, pointing out the crocus’.

Naturally, I had no idea what she was talking about. All I could think was that it sounded like “croak” but it was obviously a flower.

TC, per usual, just shook his head and sighed when I freely admitted I didn’t even have half a clue what a crocus looked like.

Maman leaves today and I am sad. It’s like this blackhole of empty matter that comes to suck me in.

I feel heavy and lonely. Which I’m totally not. But still.

There’s this love and reassurance having her with me. Everything does seem like it’s okay and working out just as it should be.

I know we’ll see each other again soon … yet soon is not soon enough.

I’m very selfish when it comes to Maman. I want her all to myself. All the time.

I wonder how some of you out there make it on a day to day basis without your Maman?

Back to the walk.

It was, however, amazing to me to find flowers in bloom … at the beginning of February.

There’s something so hopeful and so symbolic of that … and so Mary Engelbreit, too.

What’s that one saying of hers?

Something like … bloom where you are planted. For the record, Mary, it was you I was also thinking of.

I don’t own anything MB, but. Wait.

I take that back. I do! Maman gave me a notepad … I think it says: Queen Of Everything – and of course, I like that. That’s about as far as my MB roots go.

All things Mary Engelbreit aside, those crocus’ were talking to me. And it was straight up out of one of the best shows no longer on television – Pushing Daisies – minus the talking dead people.

Think crocus instead of the dead.

And thus they said, just like I was reading it straight out of the King James version … which would never really happen because I only crack open The Book {as I refer to it} in serious moments of stress. Right – not often. But I thought it paints a better picture to make reference to it.

And their words reigned down upon me from the heavens, striking me thus forth. Proclaiming:

That despite anything, we can always find a way to bloom right where we are, in the midst of any condition.

 

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