So. My Peeps.

I had a mind boggling thought last night during meditation … why not, listen, like really listen to that little voice in my head.

The one I hear from my higher, more wiser self {okay, The People, too} when I quiet everything on the outside. That I have been finally making it a point, to even start attempting to hear and actually pay attention to.

I was so excited about this novel {yeah, imagine that after so much yoga!} idea, that it took a while to calm myself down. When I eventually got to that slower pace with my breath and my thoughts, I promised inner, higher self me that I would not judge nor second guess what super wise higher self was going to tell me.

And this is what I heard: forgive yourself, love you.

Well, um … duh, higher self.

Right, I said no judgements. Disregard, higher self.

I sat with this for a while … forgiving and loving myself. That voice is right. That is precisely what I need to be doing more of. Forgiving myself, letting me off the hook. Loving the great aspects of me. Stopping the comparisons.

Love, love and love some more. I’m beginning to not only think, but truly see that this whole love business — that Mother Theresea and Ghandi and Buddha and all those other super cool peeps talked about?

Yeah, they were totally on it, way ahead of shit. They knew what was up. That is all there is. This is the way of change and peace — but first, we must start with ourselves.

That’s what higher me got across … I put so much love out to others, but what about me?

After I meditated, I did something else … another thing that “popped” into my head. Something I laughed at and immediately judged and mentally made fun of.

But. Higher self wasn’t having any of it and insisted I do it. So I did.

I walked into the bathroom, looked at myself in the mirror, and said, “I love you.”

And then I said it again. Slower. More deliberate. As I started back into my own reflection.

I love you.

It felt … foreign. Silly. Uncomfortable. Precisely what I need to be doing.

I’ve gotten so caught up on my actions coming from a place of love and putting love out unto The Universe, that I overlooked the most important aspect of this whole love thing to begin with — me.

Self first, peeps. We need to start putting us before everything else.

In the words of Guru, “no one can take care of you like you.”