Last night The BF and I were hanging with new friends. I love new friends, it always thrills me to connect with someone and feel I’ve found someone who “gets” me.
Because honestly, People, I’m kinda sorta the most socially unsocial person I know. I could very easily hole myself up in my house every night and never leave. Yet. I still crave this connection with others. Is that weird? That I am both driven to connect and hide at the same time? Or are more of us like this and just not talking about it?
Anyway, as new super cool friend and I were talking, I mentioned Guru and my heartache for him. She mentioned a Ted Talks vid. This is the other great thing when we take the time to sit and talk and connect — we are able to receive the messages we need. I firmly believe that — The People and this Universe use us as messager conduits. We are here to guide one another.
This beautiful talk has given me much comfort and much to think about. Death is something that is usually hovering close to my thoughts — not like I have a thing with death, but because it is always the other side to this life coin. It’s the yin to the yang and I want to be at peace with other people making their transition to non physical. I want to live as fully as I can so that at the end, death becomes the birth.
I needed this. I needed these words. I needed to be reminded … that the best we can do, is simply being us in the midst of death and acknowledging that in the people we love who are dying and whom are not defined by disease and illness.
When Guru decides it’s his time to leave, I will be okay with that. Not that it won’t be hard and heart breaking, because it will be those things, too. But I know his words and spirit will always be with me.
We’ve had all this time to carry each other when I didn’t even know that’s what we were doing till listening to Rebecca Brown. What more could I have asked for? What more is there to want than that? From anyone that we love and admire?
I think I get it now, this carrying of one another. It goes hand in hand with taking care.