Making Peace.

I know I need to make peace with this bullshit weather.

But I can’t seem to. I’m resenting the weather right now. Big time. Another morning of waking up to more snow and freezing temps and I thought maybe I should just scream and I’d feel better. And yes, I fully recognize this whole making peace with the weather is more a metaphor for my life. Damn you, realizations!

It is officially cabin fever over here. I’m tempted to go get in the car anyway, if it weren’t for FOH. I must be in over protective mom mode already, because I feel paralyzed at the thought of actually having to go anywhere.

So is created this fight duality of being pulled in two directions and wanting anything but to stay home all day pretending I’m going to accomplish things that are never going to happen. All while knowing that’s probably exactly what’s going to happen.

I need to get out and do. Like go check out over priced baby shit I need that will get about three months worth of use. Gah!

I keep hearing Higher Self proclaiming peace and embrace now and all that crap that I’m supposed to have most likely mastered by now. But I don’t think I ever really will … more like, as I believe with everything, it’ll just be a continual work in self directed present moment awareness progress.

Which means maybe I should just go back to bed. There we have it. My big solution. Is there anything sleep doesn’t help?

 

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