Will make me feel better.

I’m having one of those moments. I feel overwhelmed. Drowning. Trying desperately to come up for air but I can’t get any. Overwhelmed and a little {for lack of a better word} hopeless. Too dramatic? Perhaps a little.

If anything, I should probably be feeling hopeful. There’s so much good in my life. FOH being at the top of that list but the truth is, this shit is hard, People.

I find myself wanting to block these days out and burn them into my memory. I constantly feel caught between this push-pull of two extremes, with no middle ground.

And the thing of it all is — no one can make it better for me except me. Just like with anything else. This is inner ground work I’m treading on.

People … I’m also feeling a little … lonely. I feel rather silly saying that because look at all the wonderful People, my People, I have surrounding and supporting me. But just because you have your People doesn’t mean and doesn’t make the loneliness go away.

This is just a brief, fleeting feeling of emotion. It doesn’t make it easier, but it does make it a little more tolerable to embrace.