To go to sleep.

I am so damn tired, I have to keep blinking my eyes to stay awake.

But I {obviously} didn’t go to sleep. Because I needed to pump. And well, feed my baby.

Which got me thinking how there is nothing a mother won’t sacrifice for her child. There is no second guessing. No shoulds or should nots. No hesitation.

Because as a Mother, you simply do. Completely taking you out of any self centered world you have previously been existing in.

I feared this. I thought maybe I wouldn’t want it to be like this … that somehow, I’d lose me or the things I  wanted … yet here I, here we, are.

And each day I wake up and look at FOH, every middle of the night moment, I’m not losing nor missing out on anything. Instead I’m finding more and more of who I am.

It is a true journey of awareness, giving and discovery.