I don’t know if I’m ready to think about another baby.

I’ve been asked the question now multiple times.

Things are still too close; too fresh.

And yes, I am afraid. Afraid to go through it all again. Afraid I wouldn’t make it through. Afraid that if something were to happen, it’d break me.

Afraid that if I don’t, I will always wonder. Afraid that if I don’t, FoH misses out on what could be one of the greatest relationships of his life.

I need to sit. I need to meditate. I need to clear The Vibes. Especially the fear. God damn you, fear. Sneaking up and in on me like that. Some nerve you’ve got, really!

I think, People. I just need time.