People, it’s a moment kind of morning. Or maybe day.

It might have something to do with another snowfall. I’m sure those of you who experience real snowfall, like a foot at a time will scoff at my two inches in the wee early morning hours, but that’s plenty for me.

And while snow does look beautiful, I quickly find it just turns to that gross mushy don’t get too close and step in it crap. And it has the bad habit of being able to stay around for a while, a long while. How inconsiderate!

So I don’t feel like doing much again but yet not doing much isn’t too helpful for me either. I’m just feeling kinda ho-hum and then it hit me as I awoke from a blurry dream, shit I really do have to birth this kid. Shit again.

Obvs part of me is still in complete and utter denial about anything coming out of my vayjay and then I think the other half of me is actually rather Zen about it.

I need to not think ahead. I need to be all Tolle-like right now. Deal with just here, just now. Why can this be so challenging? Lately I believe I’ve probably been spending half my day five months into the future. While I realize it’s pointless, a part of me also feels I need it. So I can be prepared in some way or speculate on how things might be and work out juggling baby, job, and just life.

But as my wonderful all knowing Guru B said, don’t worry about the past or the future. Invest yourself only in the present! Because the present is where true happiness lies.

I’m really lucky I have such smarty mastery People of my own. They make me feel like I really can do this present moment stuff.