Loss hits like a wave.

One minute you’re completely fine and the next thing you know, the tide has changed and waves are crashing in.

You are anything but fine.

I’m teetering on the edge. That’s for sure. A controlled edge, mind you. Always controlled, People. Because that to me, is self awareness.

That is being able to step outside of myself and see things for what they are : a passing situation. Nothing stays the same. Not ever, no matter how much we want it to.

Change is our only certainty. And so this, too, changes. It is changing. It will one day not feel like it does now. One day, many years from now, it will be another memory. Stored away.

And I will be okay. No, more than okay. I will find myself better than I was, stronger than I thought. These times serve as the gift we need to open to know what we are actually capable of.

And that ache I feel deep within my heart. I’m thankful for it. It tells me I’m loving and despite loss, love doesn’t take anything from us.

It only gives more.