In bed.

You can tell I’m in lounge mode because I unintentionally left the “g” off lounging. Loungin’ works just fine. Plus it suits me right now.

What else is there to do on a Saturday morning that has suddenly opened up free and clear ahead of you? Right, other than to lounge and get back in bed and pray to Jesus that your baby heartburn goes away.

For real, People. I’ve never had heartburn before. Okay, save for the maybe twice occassions it did happen that were over in five minutes, I mean, I’ve never experienced true heartburn.

With this kid putting so much damn pressure on my internal organs, things are uncomfortable. Especially after eating. I keep having to remind myself that even when I’m ridiculously hungry, not to eat too much at any given time. It makes me feel like I can’t breathe and well, heartburn.

I might also be back in bed because I want to be in denial. FOH has seven weeks. SEVEN. DID YOU READ THAT. READ IT AGAIN.

SEVEN.

Yeah. So I just might be kinda sorta secretly freaking out inside right now. On the outside I’m trying to project cool, calm and collected because I am about to be a mother and BIRTH this babe and shit, I better at least pretend I’m in control and have it totally together so then maybe I’ll feel that way?

It’s reality, go-time now, People. Full on reality that I cannot stop this clock, the days are passing away ever too quickly and this babe will be arriving. Soon. Damn soon.

Really little babe could come at any time from here on out but once I hit 36 weeks, my doctor told me to have my bag ready to go. I keep telling FOH that there better not be any crazy ideas brewing in there about popping out early. The end of April is just fine and perfectly suited for me.

I’m pretty much a mix of every emotion there is right now and I thought maybe if I got back in bed and woke up, it’d be like a re-do. I could start the day off feeling like everything is just fine and going perfectly smoothly and I’m all trusty trustry in the timing of The Plan.

I’ll go back to bed right now and let you know how that goes.